Yesterday Robert and I FINALLY made a decision about where we're gonna move and about our future and stuff. It has not been an easy decision to make but I can't tell you how great it feels to finally have a plan and to know where we're going. I felt anxiety every day and to have that feeling gone and have peace there instead is just great. It was not as easy as just making a decision either. For once I feel like we really went about this the right way. We've been praying for help to know what to do and to help us get out of this horrible financial rut we've been in since, well pretty much since we've been adults. On Sunday there was an option that was re-presented to us that we've thought about a couple of times but kind of shrugged it off or didn't feel right about at the time. I kind of mentioned to Robert and we thought about it a little bit but that was it. On Monday I read a lot of the October Ensign and it seemed to me like the main focus of a couple of articles was how sometimes you won't get a confirmation before you get a choice. That first you have to show faith by making a choice, by acting, and then you will either get your confirmation or non-confirmation. Sometimes we just need to take a leap of faith in the dark before we see the light. Also I kept thinking about a talk from a General Conference, I think it was by Elder Scott, who said that sometimes we don't always receive yes or no answers to our prayers and this might be because Heavenly Father is testing us or showing his trust in us to make our own decisions, and sometimes it may be because there are more than one right ways or answers. As Robert and I carefully weighed the pros and cons of our options and choices a decision was still a little fuzzy but clearer than before. Finally we took that leap of faith and decided to go for it- to make our move and take advantage of this amazing, once-in-a-lifetime opportunity. That night (Monday night) as we prayed about it in family prayer I started to feel a confirmation that this was the right choice. Yesterday morning was a simple walking day of training and I decided to take advantage of the peace and quiet of walking at sunrise on a cool, crisp morning. I didn't take my music and as I walked to the meeting spot to meet my partner I prayed my heart out to know that our choice was the right choice for our family and in accordance to His will. During the walk I kept getting all these different songs in my head- Leaving On a Jet Plane, That's How You Know (from Enchanted), Come Follow Me, Peace Like A River... I was overwhelmed by the strong answer I was getting. As I prayed to say thank you to Heavenly Father for such a quick and strong response I was overwhelmed with burning in my heart that this was the right choice. I can't recall a time when I've ever been so sure about an answer to prayer. It's awesome! All day yesterday I kept thinking about our new destination and I felt excited, scared but sure that this was the right thing. How grateful I am for that. I'm not going to tell you where yet until next week because there are a few things we're waiting on and we still need to tell Robert's mom first but you will soon know where we're on the move to in a month or two. Guesses anyone?! The rest of the day was pretty low-key. I did have a personal break-through when I overcame a strong temptation through prayer and that felt great. I also read some major power chapters in the BOM- Mosiah 2-4. Wow! I love the story of King Benjamin and his words to his people in these chapters are so strong and powerful and motivating. It was great to read these words yesterday. And like I said, the rest of the day was nothing to write about.
#288- Mosiah chapters 2-4 in the Book of Mormon