I hate to say it but I've really had a tough day today. It started this morning with someone confronting me about something I did unintentionally that made them mad. I was really offended and a little upset. I didn't want it to blow up so I came in the room prayed and read scriptures to try and get rid of the bad feelings and get some good, Sabbath day and Spirit-filled feelings instead. I didn't blow up which is good but I didn't feel much better either.
I almost felt like not going to church but I'm so glad that I did. I love the feeling I have when I take the Sacrament and the Spirit it brings to me. It was a little difficult to sit through Sacrament meeting though because I was so uncomfortable and had a hard time breathing. Bubba was just in a really uncomfortable position. I felt fine after that though and really enjoyed the rest of church. After we got home Robert's mom and sister took Baily with them to Peter Piper Pizza. I'm sure she had fun but I was kinda bummed because I really wanted to hang out and chill with her today without any interruptions. Robert was glued to his football game that he had recorded so I did some stuff on the computer and read a couple of things. (BTW... how do you like my new layout?)
After Baily got home and the game was over everyone (Robert's family) was outside just visiting. I went out there and I felt like the biggest outcast. I felt tension and no one talked to me at all. I felt like I was even being shunned by Baily which really, really hurt my feelings. She feel off of her tricycle and cut her lip and after I wiped it off she only wanted her Abuela. She got mad if I even looked at her. When I tried to pick her up and she screamed at me I came in the house, went to my bathroom and just cried. Robert and Baily are out there with them right now and I feel so left out. It's times like these when I feel so lonely and miss my mom and just being around any of my family so much. I would give anything to just be able to go over to my mom's house and just talk. I miss her so much. I wish I had my brothers or any of parents close by. It's just hard sometimes. Ok- sorry for the pity party. I just had to vent a little. Hopefully the evening will get better. This week shouldn't be as busy as last week which should make things not as crazy around here. Have a good night everyone!