Friday, September 21, 2007

Power of a Simple Word

Sorry. It's a word that's only 5 letters long. So why is it so hard to say? Pride. That's why. I've been having another hard day today for a couple of reasons but the main one is I hate tension with my husband. My poor husband was sick again all day and I was like an ice queen to him. In the past 2 days up until this evening we've said about 3 words to each other. I don't know why it's been so hard for me to get over this resentment I have. I know I've been wrong which makes it so much worse. I felt guilty all day and I really wanted to just hug him and tell him how sorry was and how much I love him. But it's easier said than done. For some reason the ice queen within me is so overpowering lately. I finally got the courage up to say I'm sorry after praying all day to be rid of these awful feelings I've been having. But my sweet husband beat me to the punch. He came and kissed me and apologized for being sick these past couple days. Ouch! Talk about a slap in the face! I just cried and told him how sorry I was. I'm so blessed to have such a patient and understanding husband. I love him so much! The tension was immediately gone after that and I feel like a whole new person now.

I was kid free today besides Baily of course. I really don't think in actuality that
she was naughty but I've been overly tired and exhausted which does not help when taking care of a 2 year old. I had a hard time when she kept asking me for things over and over again and cleaning and picking up after her all day. She's 2 so she needs help with everything but it's so hard to not let that get to you- especially when you feel so tired and drained. I really need to find a way to get an energy boost- I'm sure that would help me so much. Going to sleep earlier than 1 or 2 in the morning every night would probably help but I'm having a hard time sleeping lately. Hopefully it will get better soon!

Baily did do some really cute things today that brought some sunshine to my clouds. She decided that she wanted to play hair salon and that her
daddy would be her customer. It was so cute seeing her brush his hair and chat away with him. I wanted to get a picture but was too late. I'll be working on getting that picture though because I'm sure this will be one of her new favorite things to play with her daddy. She also decided she wanted to have a nice conversation with her baby brother. She kept talking and whispering to my tummy and telling us she was talking to Bubba. It was so sweet! I really think she's going to be a good big sister- some of the time anyway. I think she's finally starting to grasp a little bit this whole new baby brother idea. I guess we'll find out soon enough! And speaking of "Bubba" I think we may have pretty much come to an agreement for a name. I'm hestitant to write about it because Robert's pretty stubborn and doesn't want to be pushed into anything. But I got a definite yes that he at least liked and considered this name which is like gold. The name is Bryce Antonio Dominguez. What do y'all think? My favorite names are Braydin and Braxton but Robert's a no go on these so Bryce may have to do. I do like it though- don't get me wrong.

Robert obviously didn't go to his softball games tonight so I hope the team did well. He does seem to be feeling better so hopefully he'll be much better by tomorrow. Tomorrow will be crazy like all Fridays but I'm glad the weekend is almost here!


Amalee said...

"....just keep swimming, just keep swimming....."

Knowing that you need to say sorry seems like half the battle is won. But I agree that the other half of actually saying it is monumentally difficult. I thought that I got my resentfulness from my mother, but maybe I got it from my father's side after all. :) All I know is that I can turn into one sulky monster. But 9 years into it, and I think I might actually be getting better at it. Of course, I did get cornered by my VT companion in Walmart on an especially bad day, and she told me that holding it all in wasn't the answer either. So I think that maybe you are one step ahead of me in this department. (musing...hmmmm...maybe I should start a blog...hmmm.....) so anyways...just keep swimming, just keep swimming...
by the way, have you heard that Josh Groban song..."Dont give up"? If you haven't, here is a link to watch the video:
it is really good. talk about the power of a simple song...:)
oh, and one other 'bytheway' Kudos! to Robert for beating you to the punch! I find my husband to be that way most of the time too. They really are amazing for putting up with us, eh?

Cordova Family said...

lol...robert didn't miss much at the game, tonio had an awful team, and left early. CRABBY! The boys were fighting or something! I hope he feels better, I'm glad you guys made is hard and sometimes it sucks...but luckily we keep pluggin along!!

collegegirl18 said...

Hey that is a cute name! Perfect for your cute little family! Now, what does Bailey think of that name(:? Glad you are doing a little better. Sometimes we just have those days or weeks or whatever! But we just have to endureth to the end I suppose, not only that, but endureth well to the end!