Ok so today was much better. The sun was shining through the clouds in my life today thank goodness. I know I got a lot of my boost from my reading this morning in The Book of Mormon. I was in 2 Nephi 2 which is a major power chapter. I was really in tune to what I read and just got so much understanding and felt so determined to choose liberty and eternal life through Christ, by having more faith in Him that He'll help me with the trials I have right now. I was able to get some things done this morning while Joaquin napped and Baily played nicely in her room. I was finally able to gut and organize our closet which has been something on my life for like 7 years. Ok not that long but a long time. That felt really good and having had that accomplishment done I felt really good about using the rest of the time of my day giving quality attention and spending quality time with my kids. They loved it as much as I did. I sat down and watched Hercules, the whole movie, with Baily and it was great. We laughed and just enjoyed each other's company. And Joaquin finally started smiling, like actually intentionally smiling, a couple of days and I finally was able to capture it on camera. I felt so happy and grateful and just pure joy while spending this quality time with my little ones. I played and read and sang and danced until I was wore out but it was great. I thought about how this is what it's like to taste of the fruit of the tree of life like in Lehi's vision. This is what the pure love of God is like. It's wonderful! I'm so glad today was so much better than the last 2 days!