When I picked them up they were so excited. We went by my house and picked up Robert then we headed to Freestone Park. Zach loves going to the skate parks and we saw the other day that Freestone had one of these that's not all ghetto like the other one's we've been to. Unfortunately the playground area's not close to the skating area. So I told Zach he could have 15-20 min. at the park only if he agreed not to complain when it was time to leave and take forever. He was bummed that the time was limited but he quickly agreed after I threatened him that he wouldn't get any time at all. So while he was skating his little heart out the rest of us... or them I should say, just played around in the field. It was a nice day and they had fun. Kenzie had some drama when she scraped her knee but when I told her that I would have to take her home if it was "hurting sooo bad" it amazingly got better all the sudden. It's funny how that works. After we left there we took them all to play at the playground area for a while and they all seemed to have a blast. And yes... Baily is filthy in these pictures and her hair's a total mess. Did I mention I was feeling crappy and my back hurt like heck? Even when she's filthy though I still think she's dang cute!
So that part of the day was a success. After we got home my hormones were out of control and my stress level was so high once again. I was in a rush to get dinner made and trying to keep the kids happy and entertained. I managed to get dinner made while I let them make a fort in the living room. All the kids ate real well- they were so hungry. After we all ate and I cleaned up which was so very painful for me I sat them all down to watch the spooky movies I rented for them. This is when I lost it. My nephew went to go color and since he wasn't sitting and watching the movie Kenzie wanted to go color... then Baily did. I was not in the mood to supervise them and really just wanted them to sit and enjoy the movies I got for them. But it's not just my house and it's not just us who lives here. So even though Bryan got to do what he wanted Kenzie and Baily were mad that I was making them sit and watch the movie- it really wasn't fair but there wasn't much I could do about it. When I went to go get a breather in my room and I had to come back I slammed the door ( I have a problem of doing this when I'm stressed out) and so then Robert thought I was mad at him. He was frustrated with me because I wouldn't tell him what was wrong. I know that must be annoying but sometimes I need to just calm down and try to clear my head before I talk about how I'm feeling or I'll just be a crying, sobbing mess. Well then I was more stressed that Robert was thinking I was mad at him when I wasn't. At this point the flood gates were opened in my mind and everything hard and stressful in my life all surfaced at once. I hate when this happens. I started missing my mom like crazy and being mad at Utah that she wasn't here, I was feeling guilty and like a horrible mom and sister for not being cheerful and for yelling and being grumpy instead, I was mad that my back hurt so bad and blah, blah, blah. So I went in the bathroom (meanwhile the kids are all sitting nicely watching Hocus Pocus) and just cried it out and pleaded with Heavenly Father for peace and comfort and strength. I felt a little better and came back out and finished watching the movie with the kids. I put Baily to sleep and came and put on the movie Casper for them and about 10 minutes into they were passed out. I know they noticed that I was having a rough time but I really hope that despite my emotions they had a good time. Today was much better but I'll post about that later. Sorry about the whininess but I can't just highlight the good things about my life in my blog or it wouldn't be honest. I'm so grateful for prayer... how do people get through life without it I wonder!?