It has been a very good Sabbath day. I felt so blessed and so grateful to be able to take the Sacrament today. I felt clean and pure and forgiven of sins I’ve committed over the past week. I’m so very grateful to be able to have the blessing of the sacrament and what a wonderful ordinance it is. Relief Society was great. Baily went with Robert during Priesthood so I got to sit and listen quietly. It was really nice. The lesson was about temples and it was beautiful. The Spirit was so strong. The temple is an especially emotional topic with me because of how sacred I hold it and how much I loooove the temple. Oh how I love the temple! Then I had the opportunity to visit teach one of our sisters today. I love visiting teaching. I love the sisters we visit teach and I love my companion. It truly is such a blessing from Heavenly Father. And I felt good today because I finally followed through on a fast. That is such a hard thing for me. After Robert realized how much we owe on bills I was really worried about how mad he would be. So as he was gone to pay for a loan extention, I was thinking of ways to defend myself and of an argument we might have. But my sweet husband is so patient and wonderful. When he got home he was whistling and smiling and we talked calmly and free of contention about what we need to do to get caught up and to get through these strugglings. Then we read our scriptures together and he read his Patriarchal Blessing to me which was totally something I needed to hear. He is such an amazing, wonderful man and I’m so very blessed to be his wife. I love him so, so much. We then prayed and the Spirit was so strong during that prayer. I feel like we really grew in our marriage tonight. How grateful I am to have the gospel in my life and for the guidance and commandments it offers. I don’t think I could be successful in marriage without it.
I’m really looking forward to starting the Body-for-LIFE program tomorrow… again. I really, honestly feel that I have the motivation this time to actually complete the 12 week challenge. I need to do so so very badly. I’m so overweight and extremely unhappy about my physical appearance. And I need to be healthy for myself and for my family. I owe it to them to be the best that I can be. I want this so bad! I feel good going into next week. I got a lot accomplished today and I feel prepared to accomplish the goals I have set for next week. My biggest challenge is going to be getting up early enough to work-out and keep my eating times on track. And I also need to focus on not being lazy and wasting time on the internet or watching t.v. Another goal I have for myself is not to spend any money at all… with the exception of groceries tomorrow and the bills we have to pay. This is going to be such a struggle as spending money is a serious weakness I have. But I need to overcome it because not only is it hurting us financially, but it’s something I really hate about myself. So in accordance with trying to better myself and be happy with who I am, I really need to work on overcoming this weakness. I’m going to go to bed now so I can have a great day tomorrow.