Thursday, July 24, 2008

My cute, cute kids!

Sometimes I really hate youtube. Anyway, since it won't post my video on here, AGAIN, here's the link. It's just my kids in all their cuteness. That's all.

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Dr. Pepper! I NEED you!!

Wednesday July 23, 2008
So day 2 of no caffeine soda was very not good. You can replace the word cell phone with Dr. Pepper in the cartoon. I really WANT a DR. PEPPER! So besides that and the usual crabbiness I've been dealing with lately yesterday went alright. I have started to feel pretty stir crazy lately. It's so hot and we have no extra car so we've been cooped up in our house for like 4 days and I think it's getting to me and my kids. I can't wait until tomorrow (Friday) to get out of this house! So anyway we just hung around the house. Baily and I had fun coloring for a while. (Sorry for the pics of me with no make-up... scary I know.) And then while I was on the computer she decided that me saying "wait a minute" to her request to do her makeup and paint her toes (toenails) just wouldn't suffice and she took it upon herself to get the job done. Nice. She's such a goofball. Thank goodness for washable, non-toxic markers! And in other news, Joaquin's 2nd tooth has popped through. It's really hard to take a picture of such cute, little toothies since they're so... well little, but here's my attempt. Awwww! If you get out your magnifying glass you can almost see them. While I was in the midst of the toothies photo session Joaquin had some, ahem... business to take care of. How come everything's so much cuter when a baby does it? Notice the red face...lol. So after a very fancy dinner of ramen and a yummy dessert of cinnamon tortilla burritos (yum!) it was dance time! That's right... So You Think You Can Dance. Have I ever mentioned how much I love this show?! Last night was a very good show as well. My top favorite for a guy is a tie between Joshua and Will. Will is technically amazing and a beautiful dancer but I just love Joshua's personality and style (the booty's not too bad as well;) ). I really like Twitch as well. The guys are just awesome this year. For now I think Katee is my favorite girl. And I really didn't like her at first but I'm really starting to like Courtney. Something about her personality is annoying to me but her dancing is pretty amazing. I loved her solo last night. And I loved Chelsie at first but she's really starting to bug me. She does have amazing legs when it comes to dancing though. So obviously my picks to go home are Comfort and Mark. And that's my 2 cents worth in case you wanted to know;)

366 Blessings:
#205- Washable, non-toxic markers

When one door closes...

Tuesday July 22, 2008
Tuesday was a bit of a rough day. First, my niece and I decided to give up soda (yeah, I know... I "gave up" soda a long time agon when I had the baby- let's just say I've fallen off the wagon) with a goal of absolutely no soda until her wedding which is September 20. If one of us gives in and drinks soda we have to pay for the other to get her nails and pedicure done for the wedding. I'm bound and determine to win this bet but I gotta tell ya- my head is screaming at me and I want one sooo bad. Just the withdrawals I'm going through is proof enough that I'm addicted and addiction is not good in any form so I have to stick with this. So sadly my poor kids, mostly Baily, suffered with my grouchiness and snappiness. I hate that. They deserve so much better than I've been with them. And PMS doesn't help either. Poor kids:( However, I did make a re-commitment to start reading every day in the Book of Mormon. Yes, I've fallen off the wagon with that as well. Have I mentioned that I've been out of it and struggling lately? I've never had a problem with being diligent in reading my scriptures before- like it was never hard for me once I felt committed, but lately it's just been a struggle for me and I hate that too. I feel like such an idiot because I know- I really, really know- that when I diligently read my scriptures my life is so much easier and I have so much more peace. It's not that there aren't any trials and life's as easy as pie and everything goes perfectly, I am just more able to handle them and more alert and in tune with the Spirit. It's common knowledge, primary children know this. So why is it so hard for me? I need to get out of this rut that I'm in. But yeah, I re-started with a goal of finishing by November 20 (now the 21st since I'm writing this on Thursday and I missed Wednesday.. idiot!) with reading 2 chapters a day. It's totally doable and I will succeed. So during the day I got a call from Robert telling me there was bad news. I haven't mentioned this before but Robert had been in the midst of interviewing for an amazing job in Wisconsin. My dad and step-mom and other family live up there and this was just a dream opportunity. Everything happened in such a way that I was sure this was meant to be (Robert getting the job and us moving up to Wisconsin). I even considered turning down my calling because I thought we would be moving within the month. He's been in the interviewing process since we left for Utah in June and everything had been going so well. Well we found out on Tuesday that he didn't get the job. We were both so disappointed. And probably Robert more than me... he wanted this job so badly. My heart aches for my husband because I see how hard he's trying to get a new job and get us out of this situation that we're in and how much he hates his job and I just feel so bad for him. I'm so grateful for how hard he's trying and how hard he works to support us everyday. When I called my dad to give him the bad news I knew they would be disappointed as well. They were just as excited at this opportunity than we were because they want so badly to be close to us. But instead of showing his disappointment my dad just told me not to worry about it, to keep trying, told me how much he loved us and was proud of us and made sure that I didn't lose faith. All my life he's told me that when one door closes another one always opens. Sometimes it's hard because it feels like lately we've just had about 40 doors slammed in our face and we're still waiting on that one door to be open but we just gotta keep the faith. I was really grateful for that phone call from my dad and his wisdom and encouragement. We just gotta keep our heads up and have faith. It's hard but we have to. And even though I know it was hard for Robert he seems to be staying positive and hopeful and I'm grateful for that.
366 Blessings:
#204- My dad making sure I never lose faith

Playing the waiting game.

Monday, July 21, 2008
Monday was a very long and boring day. It felt like just another day in the waiting game- waiting to hear back about one of the many jobs that Robert's been waiting to get. It's really annoying and frustrating waiting to hear about whether he got hired or not. Anyway, I was pretty lazy, once again, and there's not really much to report about the day. I was really excited when I went out to get the mail and discovered my 2 purple flower bushes (don't know what they're called obviously) had bloomed overnight. Seriously- they go from the picture on the left to the ones on the right overnight and I just get so excited when they come out in all the perfect purpledom! That's my only highlight about having to brave the melting heat outside when I have to go get the mail. And also my kids were pretty awesome on Monday. They're really sweethearts I must say. Baily is such an awesome big sister- much better than I ever was. Beau can agree to that I'm sure (my younger brother). Anyway, it just melts my heart how well they get along and love each other. Baily takes care of him so well and helps me with whatever I need to take care of him and Joaquin justs adores his sister- he's always laughing at her and staring at her in pure amazement at how awesome she is. It's awesome. And yes, Baily was pretty much in her pj's all day. Hey, I said I was lazy and I wasn't lyin'!

366 Blessings:
#203- Baily being such a helpful and loving sister to Joaquin

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Feeling Loved

So my friend from Show Low, Brittany, gave me this award on her blog and I was so touched. Thanks Brittany! Here's the rules:
First display your award on your blog. Then pick 5 blogs that you love to read to award the Sharing the Love Award. After you pick your 5 bloggers make sure you let them know so they can display their award on their blog!
My picks (this was so tough to pick just 5!):
Malissa
Emily
Nicole H. from Mesa
Leslie
Janel